Hey Amy you all say. Guess what. What? i say. Did you know Josh did this...
Bleh i do not want to know what my ex did or any of my other ex's did. Yay for them if they got laid, but please if they breath wrong don't come and hassel me about it. Its kind of embarrassing and makes it hard to get over someone if they never go away.
Ohh does your life run on gossip? You fucking mongers. GOSH. And no i am not talking about my close close friends who are fine to bring up whatever they want i don't mind its just what we do. But when some random I've met like three times before makes it their business to call me at all times of the night to say my ex is fucking the schoolies whore right next door, I DON'T WANT TO KNOW.
Speaking of randoms. I walked out of the toilet today after drinking at Sam's. I love Sam's. But anyway, He scared the shit out of me, not that there would be any left considering i just left the toilet. Again - beside the point. So i was like sorry I'm hung-over. MISTAKE. Do not say that to randoms. He came up to me again at the escalator and asked me if i had a big night. I said yes and walked away. Then me and mum went to Crazy Clarkes to buy toothepaste and other mindless objects. Here he is again! Idly walking around me...GOH. So we leave. And i get KFC. And now i spew.
As a year twelve student I find that my life has moved slowly forward and rapidly backward over the last two years or so.
Nobody has contributed much to society.
And I hope we all die miserable painful and suck-filled deaths.
I’m not a happy child, and nor is many of us.
We all royally suck.
Well that was an attempt at one of my last assesments as a student. I haven't been updating much because me being a tool gave up my private blog to some fag and need to change all that shit around. Heh. And i usually just edit those and paste here. Its a fun task...perhaps I've been so stressed because i haven't vented properly.
I've been going out quite a lot these days, mainly to drink, met a lot of crazy people along the way too. I waited at a bus stop at 2AM and talked to RomperStompers. Also old men of sorts telling me they want me to be safe and to meet them at their house and have some cones. When i was six - the only old man offering me a cone would be my grand-dad or the old man himself (father) and of coarse it would be a cone of another kind.
I have also come to realize that i do miss my grandfather enough to feel annoyed at the age values at the time of his death. I never really knew much about him at all...except that he cared for me, he may have been the best relative i had and regretadly i have a horrible wish he was here and some lesser form of family had taken his place. Makes me feel rotten.
I also feel counsilling would be a greater option for me, the problem being i know whats wrong, i just don't want to change it yet - I'm happy being at the average and "happy" being a drunk immature brat for a while. Alcohol = Happy. So happy isn't at the usual definition it should be. But thats beside the point - Afterall this is just the internet. My hot sexy internet.
Generally speaking, boys are the most shit pieces of trash we own. If we rid ourselves of them, i bet this greenhouse shit wouldn't be a problem. I should just be a lesbian, Brooke and Stef are hot, and i honestly don't give a fuck what people think about it. Although a boy, who owns a penis, would be sufficiant also. Or a boy that isnt afraid to like you know MAKE A MOVE before its too late. Instead of fleeing the country or deciding to go soft and fall for the next emo boy to come thier way.
What compells someone, who know you like them to rub into your face that they have a girlfriend, its fucking retarded. I'm sick of liking people and then as soon as i realize this, they decide to move or come out or goh. It really does shit me.
And this god figure we are all so crazy about can go rape a crucifix. I mean he has so much spare time to do shit like that because he sure as hell forgot about us. And no i'm not being a selfish bitch like usual, why do the rich get richer?. Answer me that.
Oh yes i have a new pet bird, he's three weeks old and doesn't have any feathers yet. He or she is so fucking ugly but that makes it so fucking beautiful. I hope it doesn't die.
Well i have missed a whole month of blogging...dearie me. Thats really lame i know, but i have been lazy and stuffed from too much assignment work -_- Although if you take a click around you will see i added much more stuff and a NEW LAYOUT that isn't mine, but you don't care do ya? No.
I went out a few weeks ago, a lot of weeks ago looking back. Managed to rape Flicketys gig-inity away, i took her out to see the shitty bands at a shitty venue but i do believe she enjoyed it. Plus i managed to totally fuck my brain at Jade's house...you walk into that house (which convieniantly isn't hers now) and you're stoned; we seem to think the drink i had was spiked...so i spent time at McDonalds looking like a complete fool. Good times. I guess. I know Crank and Flick had a nice laugh.
Yeah some drama happened that night, like Jades being full of Skregs that seem to have a distaste to Crank, i am happy they identified me as being a nazi and let me be.
I have a new 'group' at school, actually i have a few. This was new news ages ago but now it is old. Gosh. Anyway outsiders seem to think i get alone quite well with them all and i like to hear that. Ashlea will be Seventeen on the 24th and on that note...
I TURNED SEVENTEEN MYSELF! My birthday wasn't too exciting but i did manage to find a copy of Harry Potter, i will celebrate it when i get time off from celebrating others birthdays.
Sam had her birthday suprise party last friday, it was kicking. My-oh-my the stories that floated after that one. I had a bit to drink...this included a full bottle of passionpop >.< The day after we spent talking and getting over the night and that was great on its own. Yeah. Anyway...
Today was the end of term 3 of year 12. Holy shit. What the fuck am i doing with my life? Wasting it, in some aspects yes. But i like what i do. So meh? I'm wasting it, but i like it, so it cant be a waste that much? Mehh I'll find a way to live - there is ALWAYS someone who has it worse.
Paramore has SOLD OUT. I wanna cry. Jeremy was thinking of taking me to formal but i don't know now :/ I would like to go with him, i should probably let him know that. Hmm.
Today i had a chat to Maddison, it was good to talk to someone i hadn't been in touch with, and speaking of this, i MUST remember to organise my own effing party. I need streamers.
Oh and i felt hope when i looked back on an old photo of me, i am whoring how adorable i was so you better go LOOK!
Schools are prisons. I sent that to maths genious today and i think he got worried. Its funny that he knows Jeremy...a little strange but oh well. I need to borrow Scrubs off him before M.G. gets them! LOL. I'm such a T.V addict. Its quite sad. On the topic of T.V I'm attached to Big Brother and i drool over Top Model every week with Stephanie. I get attached to strangers too easily, so if i actually meet new people i get attached to them too. Goh. Anyway Kim from Top Model, her hair is amazing, but its a lescut. I think Stephanie should get it haha, just for kicks. She's better than Tyra's left tit.
I just woke up mum and dad!! Its like 12.49PM! I haven't written my Drama thing up either and now i wont be allowed on tomorrow. DAMN. Actually i will be because the twins are going to Harry Potter and I'm missing out. *pew**gun reload* *pew* Yeah i get to stay home, because Mel isn't doing whatever with me tonight, retarded much?
I have noticed that everyone is a Paramore fan! Gosh! Now they are getting more popular here grr. I love them but i don't want them to be ruined by fuckwits here!
Talking to my new buddy Erin today after a royal ditching by Kellie and etc - She got her P's and took Daniel and Ashkid to town. I was told mosh tickets are sold out for Taste of Chaos!! GOD DAMN IT. Will someone donate to my paypal account? I'm in debt, by $20. Fuck it. Anyway to donate, just send whatever amount to mind_chuck@hotmail.com. I'll love you forever! Too many apostrophies.
And just for the fans, thanks to Stephanie, i own, ADDAMS FAMILY EPISODES. Fuggyes. They are actually shyte. Check out the song Icky Thump - White Stripes, i love it, you damn immigrants!
FUCKING COMMENT THIS TIME BITCHES!
Yes, i have been absent for a while, i have actually visited my page like a child that craves attention. But i have been busy, sort of. Smoke it up Smokey.
Mary Magdalene was pretty awesome, i received wounds from the mosh, nick-named 'sovieneirs'. Yeah, well Magdalene wounds aside, i own a shirt and a CD from a band with bad cred at the moment. Aren't i just the scene-kid. *cough* *die*. I swear to something i rely on materials too much to feel as though I've done something with my time - at least i admit it.
I am now FREE to drive around with a licenced driver. About fucking time, soon I'll be leaving more often and i think that scares the family. Even though they hate to admit it, i know I'm valued. Enough.
My holidays were "distant", in the words of Rachael. I've kind of backed off a bit with her, she's like a needy girlfriend. I have realised that I'm not one to talk - The new-old-boyfriend i have accidentally on purpose managed to stalk these past few days. I did get to have some mighty fine alcoholics at Flicketys. I made my own drink, passionpop with mandarin shot. It rhymes, now go...drink up my pretties.
Yeah i heard some interesting information from my two favourite propagandists. All boy talk. Seriously. They are male, they do own penises and have ego's. Keep in mind my generalization, i am only talking about two. One likes someone else because she said she liked him, retard much? yes. And the other said something along the lines of "FUCK NO", when the option of myself came up as a formal partner. No offence, but since you got that attitude and haircut, I'm happy about that decision.
Hayley Williams is amazingly hot. xoxo
The new-old-boyfriend phaze lasted a short time. But we are now normal friends again, i am so happy about that. The whole relationship i found myself to be embarrased to be with him - not his fault. This was on a parents stand-point. But that put aside maybe we'll go back to random no-strings-attached make-out sessions. Which is fine by me, and probably fine by him.
I've been sick lately, the cold, with a giant migrane a few days ago - I have missed so much school! Exam block has started and i haven't done any of my assignements!!!! I'll do them this weekend with Flickety.
I've been bitching to that girl (Flickety) alot lately, about our own friends, other people and shit boyfriends which in my case - no longer exist. She's going out with Damo. Weirdest couple EVER, but i think they will survive. I think my problem is COMMITMENT. I'm fine to do things when there is no feelings involved, but as soon as the 'were going out' thing happens - nothing works. Oh well.
I got to go to Stanthorpe last week to visit my Aunty, she is turning 50 so she had everyone over. I got to see Taylor and Clancy again ^_^ I love them with all my heart.
Speaking of heart. The sparks are gone between me and canadianboy. Well for now they have. All my bad feelings show too well when i talk to him. And the happyness has died - I think we'll regain something back, but i hope its not dead.
I have a photo -fangirlscream- Its of me and Jade - She's this girl thats sort of my friend, but not really. Its weird. But here it is: CLICK IT
LOL my friend Glen whom i have never met, calls me more than some of my friends, but not enough to be annoying. I love it, he's so country and the conversation doesn't die often. Just thought i would add that in...for no reason what-so-ever.
And on a last note - MUSIC. Beautiful. Beautiful. Music. Check out Blessthefall - His Last Walk. Its a good album, the sound similar to Escape the Fate, Alesana and Saosin. Not only that, but now my favourite local band Mary Magdalene are Spliting. It Sucks. Balls. But i will be getting their EP and T-Shirt at their last gig. Check them out here: http://myspace.com/marymagdalene.
Okay thats it for me :) Please comment (they will be returned) and do you like my new layout?
I went and found myself a new-old-boyfriend on Wednesday. I think that warrents for a new post?
Well...a few people arent too happy about it, but who cares, my life right? right. I'm not sure, my relationships are complicated...oh well. I gave SONIA and SARA (not the slut one) access to my site, i think its good ^_^ and I've been talking to Carina lately too. I'm happy about some things.
Also thanks to everyone who has been commenting, especially Roni and Mahala. :) Oh and the new kids like leaf and tessa. Actually made this site feel like its loved. mwah
Anyway, i have a treat for you all...ICONS. They are crap, but you will love them okay? okay.
Avril:
The Grates:
MCR:
Please leave a link back if you use these ANYWHERE! and more will be up soon at another page <3
I know its been a while. But i don't really care at the moment :/
My life has been really depressing lately, and i don't use that term lightly.
Things are boring me too...nick left. I've been accused of being pregnant and of slutting around. I haven't gone near anyone in ages, so it is very bitch for someone to say that...especially my own parents. LOL 4U keeps playing by KoRn. I thought i liked __ again. but i dont. i just feel like dieing at the moment. nearly cut again the other night.
meh. im not an emo so dont call me one. sometimes the least likely people have worse problems than you. so just think about that in your day-to-day life. oh and internet fights are LAME. get over it.
"Bye mum I'm off to play in the army", said the little boy to his mother.
"Have fun son", the slightly aged woman said to her son, "Oh and don't forget to die like a man for my honor".
She smiled and threw a brown-packaged bag containing a tomato sandwich at him and waved, with that the boy smirked back, and made his way down the stony pathway to the white-washed fence, opened the gate and left without a kiss goodbye.
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Now i'm of consenting age to be forgetting you in a mess-hall
And isn't this exactly where you'd like me
I'm exactly where you'd like me, you know
Its fun to die in the A. R. M. Y. Its fun to die in the A. R. M. Y.
They have all your favourite guns for toys
You have to watch what you're putting down
So its okay to die for that NuttyBush
ohhh nutbush, dieing for that president nut bush.
I'm afraid i faked it, now i pray for more naivety.
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Oh you take care of me now, just pat me on the shoulder
and let the secret services take me away from all this drama.
*Panic! At The Disco, The Village People, Tina Turner, President George W Bush, Adolf Hitler
Hmm...i think that was a little strange...meh.
A lot of stuff has been happeneing lately.
Nick left me, i am very sad, although he may be getting my name tatt'd to him, thats pretty cool and..permanant.
Red marks. And yet, i should appreciate what i have.
I am SO SICK OF EVERYTHING.
A week ago tomorrow, a kid at our school was hit by a car. He passed away later in hosptal to the horror of his friends and family. When i heard the news, i didn't care, and didn't know what to say to the people who were affected.
Thursday i found out who this kid was, i had met him a few times, and always saw him around. They told us in front of the full school assembly. I just started crying, it was so sad. I felt so guilty and overwhelmed.
A lot of stuff went down that day. I was outside my drama class when people came up to comfort me and everything. I still felt guilty, because millions of people would come and hold me and try and make me feel better. And that poor boy had no-one. His life was only just beginning, and everyone else had made mistakes, he hadnt done anything wrong. Bens mum counsilled me.
Rachael and Sarah really pissed me off that day when i was crying my eyes out they started BITCHING. About each other, it was so lame!
The memorial was on today. Everyone was crying even though Snoop Dogg was the main music theme...eh. Josh saw me cry, i was so embarrased when he told me. A boy called Jed gave me a mint today, it was the nicest thing thats been done to me in a while...i shall thank him one day.
Went to the swimming carnival i did. I'm pretty damn proud of myself, i JUMPED into the pool. It was so much deeper than i thought it would have been! Anyway i made it to the end without dieing, so i guess it was an okay day. I stuck with Kathryn for most of it, she is so nice! Goes to gigs too which is pretty damn cool of her :D
Speaking of gigs, you guys should deff. check out Arthur Terrace and Mary Magdalene, who are metal band from T-bar (think Norma Jean). I think they are awesome! If you add them to myspace say theamytivillehorror told you too. I want a damn penguin/teddy shirt! (Competition thing)
*Oh yeah, i thought i was unloved last post, but i forgot to change my comment settings hahaha! I'm lame. Bye*
